Request for prayer

Hello all.  I’m asking for prayer if you think of it.  Tomorrow (Thursday) at 5pm PDT.  I am having a stranger pray for my healing from an orphaned spirit.  I arrived here working on a fundamental intimacy/connection problem that I have.  Here’s just one link for what an orphaned spirt might look like.  I hope over coming days to expand on this a bit here, so we’ll see how that goes.  I hope over coming days to expand on this a bit here, so we’ll see how that goes.  This is in contrast to a biblical spirit of sonship.

11 Contrasting Traits between an Orphan Spirit and a Spirit of Sonship

Here are the characteristics pulled from that link.

1. The orphan spirit operates out of insecurity and jealousy. The spirit of sonship functions out of love and acceptance.
   • Some, certainly insecurity
2. The orphan spirit is jealous of the success of his brothers. The mature son is committed to the success of his brothers.
   • I don’t think so. (But maybe, if I dig all the way down to bare metal honesty?)
3. The orphan spirit serves God to earn the Father’s love. The mature son serves God out of a sense of divine acceptance and favor.
   • 100% me.
4. The orphan spirit tries to medicate his deep internal alienation through physical stimulation. The mature son walks in the joy and presence of the Lord for comfort.
   • Me.
5. The orphan spirit is driven by the need for success. The Spirit leads the mature son into his calling and mission.
   • Again, me.
6. The orphan spirit uses people as objects to fulfill their goals. Mature sons serve people to bless the kingdom.
   1. Oh God be merciful to me, this is me.
7. The orphan spirit repels their children. The spirit of sonship attracts their children.
   1. Ugh.  me.
8. The orphan spirit has issues with anger and fits of rage. The spirit of sonship rests in the Father’s ability to control and guide their future.
   1. I try it hide it very well, but me.
9. The orphan spirit is always in competition with others. The spirit of sonship is always blessing others.
   1. Me – at least I’m not 9 for 9. (Not that I’m competing.)
10. The orphan spirit has a lack of self-esteem. The spirit of sonship walks in the love and acceptance of Father God.
    1. Yeah, dang it.
11. The orphan spirit receives their primary identity through material possessions, their physical appearance, and activities. The spirit of sonship has their identity grounded in their sonship and their Father’s affirmation.
    1. If you add achievements to this list, then me.  I’m certainly not the spirt of sonship one.